Hello,
Well... it seems April has not only brought literal showers, but metaphorical showers onto my life as well. Some good, some bad. LOTS of stress this past month. I can't imagine why I am losing weight, I have been stuffing my fool face. I think when I am stressed I eat sporatically. Sometimes I skip meals without even noticing. It's not good. I haven't really had time to write lately. I had a windfall which was cool! Picked myself up a slightly used 06 Norco Six One Free ride bike! YAY. I love it so! I can't wait to hit the mountains!
OH aye... sometimes you just have those weeks dont you? Where you don't even know which way is up. Just a melancholy state of exsistance. I hit the nail on the head of how I am feeling with this quote:
"So tedious is this feeling. This feeling is an addiction of the human spirit. A glass ceiling that you desperately want to break through, Yet fear being fatally cut in the process of its shattering."
Well... it seems April has not only brought literal showers, but metaphorical showers onto my life as well. Some good, some bad. LOTS of stress this past month. I can't imagine why I am losing weight, I have been stuffing my fool face. I think when I am stressed I eat sporatically. Sometimes I skip meals without even noticing. It's not good. I haven't really had time to write lately. I had a windfall which was cool! Picked myself up a slightly used 06 Norco Six One Free ride bike! YAY. I love it so! I can't wait to hit the mountains!
OH aye... sometimes you just have those weeks dont you? Where you don't even know which way is up. Just a melancholy state of exsistance. I hit the nail on the head of how I am feeling with this quote:
"So tedious is this feeling. This feeling is an addiction of the human spirit. A glass ceiling that you desperately want to break through, Yet fear being fatally cut in the process of its shattering."
My most poetic moments are my most stressful moments. Go figure. I can't explain to blogger-land what I mean by this quote. Too personal.
I should start teaching yoga this month. I believe I am having a meeting today to discuss the finer details. I'm both excited and nervous. In my current spiritual state of upheaval I am not sure how I'll guide a group of people on their journey. I can only assume I'll detach from my self. After all, these are all just roles we are playing a part in.
Sometimes I hate the essence of spirtuality because I know it's truth, but I can't grasp it. I know how fickle it is to allow myself such attachment to 'things' 'people' 'moments' and to anticipate a CERTAIN result, when really all are possible. How to change such a hard wired programming in my very cells!? Ugg.
I should start teaching yoga this month. I believe I am having a meeting today to discuss the finer details. I'm both excited and nervous. In my current spiritual state of upheaval I am not sure how I'll guide a group of people on their journey. I can only assume I'll detach from my self. After all, these are all just roles we are playing a part in.
Sometimes I hate the essence of spirtuality because I know it's truth, but I can't grasp it. I know how fickle it is to allow myself such attachment to 'things' 'people' 'moments' and to anticipate a CERTAIN result, when really all are possible. How to change such a hard wired programming in my very cells!? Ugg.
Can you tell my skies are cloudy? This post is depressing. I'm sorry blogger-land.
In other news I did... like... 50 crunches last night! ProPeR crunches. I'm sore.
Here's my new bike, feel free to ooh and ahh. haha.
Awesome new bike! Never seen a photo of ya before...you're too cute! Where are you going to be teaching yoga?
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